Saturday, November 7, 2009, 18:21
Day of Ignorance

This is the Liar Game, where people take advantage of the trust they have with another person for their own gains. This is Life.

Hate how people just don't get it, how the chain of command works, how petty they are, to cause so much trouble for me, in just 24 hours.

I really felt like it's all the end for me, not that I am incompetent, but because people are plain selfish. Selfish. Ha, to think that there's so much love in the world, but politics just screw it all. Love others like you love thyself. I am thinking, if this would continue, what will happen?

Now I get the rationale why people hate doing duties with him. Not only he's careless, he can't afford to care at all. And to my blur king, I seriously got nothing to say. A 24 h shift and so much things happened, what will people think of me? F-ked up sergeant? Because he skipped the chain of command, because he went to wake others? Because I am ignorant. Ignorance is not blissful.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009, 19:37
I must say life is not that easy as a RP spec. Politics is every where. Guard room, post office... WHA! really seen quite a bit over here. Really unsatisfied with someone who wasted my four hours yesterday trying to pry my brain on thinking about how to make a roster, satisfying some conditions that can't be neglected:

1. The shift system cannot be destroyed.
2. Me and my spec buddy will ease the load of the spec in the other shift, but not compromising on the rest days.
3. Weekend duties must be fair.
4. The period of time between work days must be fair.
5. The frequency of one doing duty on a certain day must not exceed 50% of the whole rota.

So this was what I came out,

and he was not happy lor. So me and my spec buddy wasted another few hours thinking on how to improve the plan. And we did. So now, let's just wait if he has a better plan, or else I won't take over his duty on Sunday.

Saturday, October 24, 2009, 10:20
Was supposed to go out today for a lunch with my NS friends, but seemed like not everyone's free today.

Was feeling really down because I still can't believe some people are so full of themselves, thinking that everything ought to belong to them.

Was really bored because there isn't much to do today.

So, what's wrong with today?

Thursday, October 22, 2009, 23:32
Somehow I predicted something, and it was right again. My stomach O_O, maybe it's time to see a nutritionist soon...

Anyways, birthday on weekdays is quite unfortunate. Cos when you're having off, people are having work or in school. Argh! But at least there's a few great stuff to look forward to.

Money is evil... really evil.

Thanks Hoakiat for celebrating my birthday during lunch, Weixuan and Shuhui during dinner. Sorry that I had to let you girls wait, cos I was kinda having fun at Hoakiat's house.

*stomach rumbling once again*

Thanks to all these souls who wished me their birthday wishes on Facebook, in order of timing...
Justin
Weixuan
Shuhuan
Meehan
Nigel
Chengliang
Randy
Samuel Tong
Hayden
Leonard
Melvyn
Weihong
Kenson
Huangyu
Yuting
Huaice
Melissa Lim
Felix
Mingjie
Izwan
Andrea
YitAn
Zongxing
Benson
Weiying
Boonping
Anthony
Cheryl Lim
Jen
Yanxun
Jolinda
Shuwei
Jethro
Mingjiang
Bernard
TingTing

and via SMS...
Kinchi
Lilin
Pockthong
ChoonKim
Kenneth Leow
Zhikai
CCWO
LeeMin
Cindy
Shutong
Diane

and the belated...
Yangyi
Samuel Lim
Reuben

Thank you all for remembering me, as a part of your life.

Saturday, October 17, 2009, 08:30
POC loh! After 8 weeks at Paya Lebar Air Base, 35 of us graduated from the tough, mindfucks, shag 'training' that we had. As of now, the posting goes like...

8 PLAB, 15 TAB, 5 CAB, 3 SAB, 4 Non-FDS Units.

Me? One of the 4 who has gotten Non-FDS Unit.

Ah... Really felt that I am going to get AFS.

Now... just a few days before my birthday, I hope that everything will be 8-5 till then. (me so evil)

Sunday, October 4, 2009, 18:36
Realised how time flies so fast... 12 h since I last booked out, but 120 min to book in. This isn't very funny. If I realised that time would have flown so fast, I will volunteer to stop time myself. But since when could we do so?

, 12:13
Can't watch tonight's match, and probably won't know the results till tomorrow.

6 weeks over, 1 week to go. This week was full of uncertainties, from the threat that we will have an exercise on Friday to the numerous pep-talks I had with sergeants. Help only those who deserves to be help. That doesn't sound good to me though, but I am really tired. Fatigue is overwhelming me, but I know I will make it through, no matter what.

I don't know whether I know how to pass through this few weeks ahead, especially since my birthday is going to clash with the OJT (freaking sad) but the chat with Randy just enlightened me. God loves me. That's enough to outweigh everything else.

Was late for confinement yesterday, but I am not afraid. God has gave me courage to face the consequences. I know he will help me through. The confinement was refreshing, different from what we had in FDS block 53. Really appreciated the sergeants and the officers back at Flight, thier warmth helped us pass the 24 hours quickly, and more importantly, efficiently. We did 50 pull-ups (got to level 7 of pyramid pull-ups)

Was quite happy for my IPPT results, Silver, 5,3,5,5,3 , accumulated 21 points Silver. Maybe next year I'll get gold?

God has given me faith in my comrades, and I will not disappoint him.

Monday, September 21, 2009, 16:15


Week 4

So, suddenly, we're back to halfway through, because CO's gonna retire and the sergeant are gonna be involved, ie. course extension by 2 weeks. That sucks because I am gonna have my birthday 'celebrated' in camp. OJT confined -.-

The three days break was really refreshing. I slept all I wanted, played and watched all I wanted, except the part that I don't wanna book in. Ahh, book in blues... UO's tomorrow, and I think it's gonna be hell. Hate outfields.

I guess I have to know when to listen and when not to. Knowing more doesn't mean that it's good, sometimes knowing too much kills.

Been the platoon IC, the first to get the new one-day-platoon-IC system, and realised that there are things that others may not see, and that we must have the moral courage to voice out, for the selfishness of one will affect the rest of the platoon. Made them learn the course song... Not bad I suppose, though it would be better if some people were more serious...

Watched the Ugly Truth, and I must say it's really a good laugh.

Sometimes people just don't know who you are... sometime you don't even know who you are...


Saturday, September 5, 2009, 19:49


, 19:05
Week 2

Things didn't start all well for all of us. CS was late, which led to punishments, while I think I am going to get screwed for getting a wrong messtin.

Over the past week, we were punished for reasons, some which I did not agree nor understand. Standardization, punctuality, hygiene were the messages sent across to us this week, not to mention the strict regimentation and team spirit that we lacked.

I am really exhausted, I bet every one is. Mentally, I had to understand important concepts taught to us. Then because no one is willing to help out, it is often difficult because every one seemed to lack initiative. Physically, we need to march and do numerous PTs, today, our counts went up to almost 800. Emotionally, the comnmanders were quite mean by punishing one for the fault of all,a nd punishing all for the fault of one. Even though they may sound logical at times, they would not seem practical at all. I wonder, will the punishments get worse as time goes by? I really hope not. For someone so emotionally expressive like me, if things don't go well for us, I may really go down. However, I know I am not alone. But, will someone be willing to know how I really feel?

I guess some people in the platoon were already targetted, for the wrong reasons or for the good, and it just kind of seem unfair for them, for easier targetting would mean that they will be required to do more extras. I am really afraid...

Sunday, August 30, 2009, 18:54
Week 1

The first few days over here in FDS were not a journey that's like a bed of roses. A week pof standardization; a week of new experience for someone who's not a neat freak, it was a cultural shock for me to be so organised.

Over the first few days, we've revisited the basic first aid stuff, a small test, did lots of pull ups, push ups, bhudda claps, 5 stand by areas, 2 stand by beds, etc.

My emotional nature was something that went really extreme this week, breaking down for an apparent guilt that no one but me could sense. I was wondering, whether it was really the fault of a superior when it was his subordinates were not performing well enough. There meant to be flaws in whatever we do. For a mistake that seemed so minute, it was really ridiculous for someone to be punished and humiliated like that.

My experience with my platooon is slowly building up. Benjamin lives near my house, whish has been blisful considering he is a very sociable guy and well natured individual as well; Latin has a good mixture of humour and objectivity; Mark who never fails to make me laugh; Benedict, William, Choon Kim and Eric seemed more detached from the rest. CS and Sam are totally crazy.

As for my instructors, they were highly demanding, as expected, but could be reasonable, as I realised. Emcouraging, they explained to us the reason behind punishments and allow us to learn how to be like them.We cannot attempt to change lives of others without first learning how to accept ourselves. Maybe as time goes by, we will too, be like them.

, 18:54
The previous week moved really very slowly... Imagine you have 5 stand by areas in 5 days... THAT'S TOTALLY INSANE!! Not including the 2 stand by beds that we had on Wednesday and Thursday...

Longed the freedom we had in SISPEC. FDS= Forever Doing Standardization. No kidding.

Other than that, I have little to complain. Food was unaccomodating for me, like every where was. Mosquitoes were problematic, alongside with beetles and a couple of moths. No MP3 is really unbearable. Need to find other forms of entertainment now. =/ Felt like the last week will never end and I am gonna book in so soon.

Wednesday was an emo-day...

Sunday, August 23, 2009, 12:55
Went out with Section 1 (half of it) yesterday, and was quite shocked that Ming Kuan changed his number =.= Anyways, went to Fish & Co... SUPER OILY!!! Okay, never mind that. Then watched the Hangover with Porky, Nigel and Guodong, laugh until cannot laugh. The comedy has this weird (gay) Chinaman who is really funny. Whacking the group with a crowbar-like-bar NAKED and spouting odd English with a Chinese accent, which reminds me of Russell Peters suddenly.

Then went shopping with Porky at J8. Bad sia this shop... the smallest size is 14 half, but I think I needed a smaller size. Missed a good deal though, it was really cheap. Then again, I hate to buy clothes that don't fit my size.

At the evening, met the S54 guys, Ed, ZX, KC and Kenneth, and had dinner at this Jap Restuarant which was -okay-. Got to know how they are doing and Ed's gonna become a Diver Officer. That's like OMFGPWNEDBBQ!

Sighs, tomorrow booking in liaoz. Wonder what's installed for me. =/